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November 17th, 2009
07:55 am - finally updated the website
 HTTP://WWW.MOTHERMARYMORPHINE.TK
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November 14th, 2009
08:11 am - ideas for submission to zeraphs zine
this is not a rough draft. this is a rough rant.
1. queer families are sometimes made up of really emotionally damaged people who dont know how to take care of each other. but you know what? the straights and the bashers most of the time made us that way, so its not our fault.
2. theres all this shit being talked about how queer families will molest their kids.?? for fucks sake fuckers, if any family is more likely to have that shit happen its a nuclear family, a family in which the one person (the sexually repressed american male) who is really most likely to hurt children is made the king of the motherfucking castle. how much sense does that make?
3. they say kids are supposed to be raised by a mother and a father to be healthy. well what if the father is alchoholic and the butch dyke the mom gets with is a better parent? the kids way more likely to get positive masculine energy from the new parent then from some piece of shit alchoholic dad who doesnt give a fuck.
4. and another thing about number 3...being raised by a tranny could be the best thing ever for a kid because theyre being raised by someone who is a perfect balance of male and female...so just being a tranny and raising a kid is in itself teaching them ALCHEMY.
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08:04 am - ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGHGHGHGH
1. im not writing a letter to those crazy bitches anymore, because they tried to do fucked up things to my friends with no cause or justification, and so that whole thing made me realize
FUCK YOU HOUSE BELLWETHER!
i dont need your stupid fucked up ideology crowding my brain out of my head. im not the crazy one. and if im a hideous evil demonic monster its because you fuckers made me that way. so fuck you!
2. FUCK you stupid evil demony thing in my head! if you had the guts to physically manifest id gouge your eyes out but you wont so instead ill kill you with ART, ill make fucktons of art every single second until youve got no more fuel to dump on me. fuck you !
3. fuck you stupid fucking yuppies gentrifying olympia! I WILL stop you! this is my fucking town!
4. I AM FABULOUS
5. IM GOING TO KICK SOME ASS AND NO ONES GOING TO STOP ME
6. i have to go take my pills now.
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November 8th, 2009
04:05 pm - ?=?
demon trying to destroy my soul
equals
write more punk rock musik.
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October 30th, 2009
October 28th, 2009
12:28 pm - a blessed joke
the Reiki was a disappointment
I should have expected that.
I spent a lot of money on it.
They were way out there....all talking about angels and conspiracy theories...
there was definitely some positive energetic shifts but....
its so hard to take advantage of them
the timer runs so fast.
i have a new friend though...shes a psychic and really smart and beautiful and amazing,
almost too brilliant and beautiful to even exist.
shes a shamaness and she doesnt know it yet. If she survives into adulthood or old age
she could be incredibly powerful, so im trying to support her as much as I can.
number 3, one of her personalities, drew for me a reality map in my sketchbook with pastels...
first a drawing of my aura, and then I asked "is it possible for me to shift my center to a different part of my aura?
"oh yes but oh be careful be careful you could break things dont want to break things"
"ill be very careful"
"yes careful"
and with such beautiful urgency she drew me the path
and i walked it
and i am home
but i dont always feel like it.
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October 16th, 2009
10:13 pm - Oh Adam, Son of Wine
Oh Adam, Son of Wine, effervescent river of laughter
I never thought I would lose you this way.
The worlds teeth wait in shadow, and know one knows how or when they will close.
My darling, sun and moon were one in your eyes
the night you set me free, with graffiti trees traced in the night
dancing to a chocolate mint breeze
so elegant along the monolith walls.
But Mother Death calls
and who can ignore Her?
But you my friend, are a fighter. I know you will implore Her,
to return your breath to blood and bone
(When you tire of drinking with Bukowski)
(When your fire had its fill of ecstacy)
(when you have skipped your last stone up an emerald sea)
I will dream on a subway to find you next to me.
i love you Adam.
---R. Maeriwillow Alexander Oct 16 2009
(dedicated to the spirit of Adam Davis, who passed away this autumn.)
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September 25th, 2009
07:15 pm - Rose
Even now, I still think of you
Furious dreamer, relentless destroyer of comfortable realities.
You broke mine so easily, that shouting night
I saw dancing insects crawl and float around my bed until dawn.
Where do I go now? What do I do?
As if all my life built up to nothing,
as if all my strife was puppet strings
and im tangled, mangled, still dreaming of your meaningless forgiveness
that will never come
floating so far from the ground, you could always conjure
a thousand reasons I am wrong
And sometimes I think a few of them are right
And sometimes I wish wish wish
to shave my head, hide alone, lie in bed for hours stoned
like the way things used to be
do you remember how hopeful we were?
We really believed we would save it all,
the trees, the stars, the mountains, the minds of lost children,
as if the universe had labored aoens through forgotten prophecies innumerable
just to create us.
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September 3rd, 2009
03:50 pm - new Mother M Morphine logo
I think its not conceited for me to say i think this is the most beautiful thing ive ever drawn.
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August 18th, 2009
August 17th, 2009
07:15 pm - fuck this bullshit demonic trajedy im not a toy for the false majesty
im so fucking sick of the occult shit from my past following me around.
i just found out last night that im going to have to cancel my wednesday band practice so that i can settle a score with an old friend/old enemy from the past. Im fucking pissed that i have to see him or deal with him again or ever again but frankly if i have a chance to get him out of my fucking life for good, i have to take it, even if it means skipping out on band practice.
but heres the thing about the band...its one of the biggest things that could heal me and show me a way to leave all that fucking demonic psychotic schitzo bullshit behind.
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02:51 pm - d
i swear im not trying to be passive agresive when i say this
i am sorry that im so fucked up.
im sorry if im a disapointment.
im sorry im not stronger.
im sorry if i have failed.
i dont know what to do anymore.
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August 8th, 2009
03:36 pm - Witch Khromosomes play their first show!!!
http://witchkrom.webs.com/index.htm
Hey hey hey so ive been up to making some musics with my bestest friend Rosco, formerly of Doomhawk, now my drummer.
We got together a week ago, practiced our asses of for four days, and then played a show at a Burlesque/topsurgeryfundraiser at queerDystopia last night.
it was fun...but really fucked up.
this is us playing our first song, "lets all squat the nail salon" lyrix are posted a couple of entries back.
another video and four or five pictures are behind the cut, as well as a brief story of what happened that was totally fucked up.
( Read more... )
http://witchkrom.webs.com/index.htm
Current Music: take a wild guess
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August 6th, 2009
06:32 pm - band name search pt 2.
So Im now officially in an insanely awesome trannycore punk/metal band with my bestest
friend rosco (from Doomhawk) . trannyboy//trannygirl guitar/drums duo madness!
were playing four songs at a tranny/queer burlesque show (at queertopia, northwest side oly)
this friday, which is tomorrow. even though weve only been a band a week we're going to
xplode everyones brains and make them beg for more.
help me figur out a band name!
candidates so far:
karrionkittens
the killer kunt clan
rancor clangor
cinderhela69
the Canker Blossoms (technically theres already some random guy who thought of this as his
profile name on an indie music site, but hes not actually making any music so im gonna
steel it from him)
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August 3rd, 2009
01:05 am
after I lost my soul to the mirror,
I followed you dear
Sisters, blind, through the fish market
I knew your true Mother had sent me to guide you, but still
I sat silent
when they started to stare, when they started to care
what you were and werent wearing
I wanted to kill to keep you safe,
but my fangs and claws were long gone by then.
Now here I am, demon haunted wreck,
searching the colored terminal wasteland
for some trace of you and your essence
that frail fury fading from memory
I wish I could call forth that fury within you
call it back from the years the system used to bludgeon down your raging heart
I wish I could call you to me, send you a caravan of loyal witchfreaks
demanding that you speak, promising you everything you deserve
I wish I could give you the world and more
but I can only open the door.
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July 31st, 2009
04:09 am - Stonewall Youth Drag Show 09: Film of Opening Song and Dance #
this is a short film clip of the opening number of an amazing drag show I was in.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hUKjlejcLlc
more to come...
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July 29th, 2009
10:19 am - grr
my face is so puffy. i look lik a chipmunk.
still stoned on vicdn so i feel stupid but not high.
cant find my glasses. cant chew watermelon.
im making soup and pouting.
i love my friends.
ill be hiding till im better.
so im sorry im a psycho.
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July 13th, 2009
10:05 am - catalogue of sunday notable rememberances that should not be forgotten or something
this anti racism stuff in my life just doesnt let up, coz racism doesnt let up (big suprise).
hangin out at the local infoshop/activistresourcecenter MEDIA IslAnd....ive gotten to be pretty decent friends with some of the homebums around here....theres good kids that hand out there.
there was a tranny there who was fucking insane (arent they all?) but i mean...this girl was i dont know. She was absolutely unbelievably gorgeous. in spite of the whole homeless thing she had made herself up so well the only unpassable thing was her voice, and even that could be glossed over (she got laryngytis). but on top of that, shes wearing this amazing green dress, some jacked gothngo jewelry, her hair done nice
so i ask her, going to a queer prom?
"no...hitchhiking " she says.
hitchhiking.
pleeease tell me youre not doing this alone.
no.
thank goddess.
anyway....heres the story. i hope malcom X's ghost would be proud of me (though im sure he would have some mad critique of my methods):
( Read more... )
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June 21st, 2009
03:24 am - quick report on the Stonewall Youth Drag Show
Ive got last minute graphic design to catch up on before Pride starts...so Ive got to be brief.
Remember how I said I week ago that I had the worst day of my life?
Well tonight was the best night of my life.
I was in a show with Kimya Dawson. It was crazy. For hours during rehearsal I was tortured by psychological demons until I broke down and cried...then all my queer brothers and sisters came over and supported me and offered anything they could, it was total mental illness solidarity kinda shit.
I wrote this crazy poem ///im going to post it later
and I played sodomites for jesus to a full house and they went nuts over it, i got about a jillion compliments later.
omg more later...this house is a mess.
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